#you'll get it when you're older

[nataliescatorccio]

aren't you almost 30? it is weird when people over 30 watch shows aimed at teens and 20-somethings. but you even said you stopped watching it, so it's fine :).

ohmygod please don't be one of those people who thinks when you're thirty you're suddenly 'old' and can't enjoy things that give you nostalgia because 'they're for teens!'. guess what, a switch doesn't flip when you hit a certain number that means you stop enjoying things you did before. this attitude will only make yourself miserable

[blueintimeart]

You'll understand when you're older and you're older now

[Hosea's campfire story // timestamp 5:40]

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Image Descriptions

Panel 1: John Marston sitting cross-legged behind a campfire, head tilted down so that his hat is hiding his eyes. Text in image reads, "Been staring at that fire now for a long while now, Marston."

Panel 2: The night sky. The moon is shining to the right. The text reads, "... I had a father who used to say..."

Panel 3: Close up on the campfire. Text in image reads, "that if you stare into a fire long enough, you can see the whole world passing by."

Panel 4: Closeup on John's eye. His expression is contemplative.

Panel 5: Just a black background with text. Text reads, "Think I'm finally starting to get what he meant."

End ID.

[lenciquest]

Imagine your romantic f/o confessing their love for you... ✿˖༚ ⁠.̮

Thinking about f/o's that are just too shy!!! they have been swooning over you for the longest time, admiring you with gleefulness every time you weren't looking. They would lay in their bed after coming home, barely getting their outerwear off, blushing, giggling and kicking their feet, daydreaming about different romantic scenarios with you, sweating at the thought of holding your hand like they're a victorian man seeing a woman's ankles.. Their heart aches with longing after not seeing you for too long (2 hours), but they just can't bring themselves to tell you about it! At some point it gets too overwhelming, making them coyly mutter a confession under their breath to you when you're doing something mundane, like walking home together. Or perhaps they'd slip a tiny note onto your desk, tiny hearts and doodles all over it, the words written by their trembling hand in colors describe their blossoming feelings for you... <3

Or if your f/o is a stoic one!! they have lived their whole life without really caring about the more intimate kind of relationships with people, until you've come crashing in into their little world, turning every one of their beliefs upside down. Let's just say that falling head over heels for you was quite an experience for them! They'd deny their feelings to the last, even to themselves, starting to catch their thoughts drifting to you more and more... You're very special to them, it may even be the very first time they've become so attached to someone! Please handle their heart with care!!! Despite their feigned indifference towards you, they've never felt any more vulnerable in their lives. They'll mention them "loving you" as for why they've got a bit too protective maybe, not wanting to admit that they love you as anything but a friend, secretly praying that you take a hint...

Or if your f/o is... well, let's just say, not the best at hiding it, which can actually combine with other types above!.. Love is a terrible force! And it makes them do just terrible crimes!! They always start to stutter when they want to tell you something interesting and cool so badly. They never manage to avert their gaze in time before you notice that they are staring at you when you are busy with something of your own, and they definitely do not know how to be subtle in their courtship. They want to bring you gifts every day! small trinkets that you will like (they've spent an hour roaming the store to pick the most perfect one), agreeing to complete any boring task in your stead, running to get a snack for you the second you mention that you're hungry. The "I love you" rolls so easily off their tongue and feels so natural they don't even notice how it happens, only realizing what they've said when you start giggling like a fool.

a/n: I have forgotten about this blog for 1728928 years... whoopsie I guess uhm happy holidays that have already passed

tags!!! ʘ⁠ʘ and a little bit of something (me whining)

[swan2swan]

Ben, when someone asks if you want a Dinosaur Behavior Chart, you accept!

[chappellrroan]

people can give as much flak as they want to eldest siblings but they'll never understand how it feels to be your parent parents

[tinystepsforward]

ngl it makes me want to die a little bit that it's so often trans people who feel that sex is mutable but oppression is always-forever based on asab in ways that allow them to demand that information from other trans people. like it feels fucking bad. it feels bad when it's people holding up someone who posts a lot of selfies as transition goals to a degree they have to clarify what they have or haven't done or what "direction" they're going in, it feels worse when people are out there like "caster semenya is not tma" or whatever the fuck. i am, as always, not a trans woman, but here's a sentiment echoed by many of the trans women around me who log the fuck off, quoted directly from one: "people who draw a clear line where they say that semenya or khelif are tme and then call me tma are just calling me male at this point".

like i get it. i really do. we seek community and shared experiences, and we feel betrayed when people have less in common with us than we thought they did. [*more on this later.] but that's not those people's faults and my god in the case i'm seeing play out on twitter rn this poor person did absolutely nothing to intentionally mislead people, just posted pictures of their actual kid self. who looks a lot like i did, because shockingly enough "we can always tell" doesn't fucking work for trans people either!

on the one hand i move in intersex circles which are unapologetically welcoming in cis "dyadic" people with pcos, because it serves nobody to draw a clear line where mutilation or genetics or some ineffable childhood suffering are what make somebody intersex, especially when most of us (esp in places like nz) have never been karyotyped and are being treated for symptoms without a pinned-down cause anyway. the more of us there are the stronger we are, the more pressure we can exert on a medical profession which doesn't like to consider how common outliers are, how uneasy sex is at all. and then on the other hand there's dyadic trans people on the internet who've yelled me out of spaces because a couple of traumatised incarcerated trans women i worked with as a prison abolitionist assumed i was also a trans woman and i didn't immediately tell them my entire csa-involved history of being sexed in varying ways as an infant and child and/or exactly how big my phallus was at birth or where in my junk config my urethra lives so they could decide i was tme or whatever.

returning to the * for a related but not identical thought: i think presuming shared experiences leads to some fucked shit in general! "oh we all had a radfem phase" or "oh we all were channers" no we fucking weren't and it's particularly obnoxious when me & mine are trying to build trans community locally to organise and resist the growing wave of far-right backlash against our existence, and there's just white people in there on a spectrum from "straight up being antisemitic and trying to get the n-word pass" through "handwringing about how they need to make space for people who aren't politically correct" to "handwringing about how brown people are right to be mad at them but doing shit fuckall". and then the other fucking brown people in the space are on some identity politics shit where they're like "trans joy inherently excludes those of us who could get deported" or "big city white queers are killing us by being visible instead of going stealth bc it stirs up the discourse" or whatever the fuck i've heard pulled out this year. there's a bunch of reasons i primarily organise outside of trans spaces and that's one of them. i've never felt more alone in spaces where people claim we're all the same than being left as the brownest moderator or organiser in a space full of people to whom "this is a safe trans space" apparently means they get to abdicate all other responsibilities not to lapse into presumed shared patterns that are fucking racist or otherwise alienating. i've never felt more alone than surrounded by exclusively trans people who sort people into boxes and assume everyone in those boxes has the transition goals they have. like i was on cypro until it disagreed with me to the point of endocrine crisis and now i'm on t and at both those points people were so fucking presumptive or entitled to my reasons or journey or personal relationship w my body

literally just submitted on (and was invited to consult on) the nz law commission's review of the human rights act and like. it's straight up fucked how many nz trans people fully do not comprehend that any "sex assigned at birth" type definitions fundamentally exclude migrants who have no way of proving it and many intersex people who happen to have been reassigned later or many times or never assigned at all as a baby. we can't make law with this shit and that's why we have to have symmetrical protections for all genders/sexes/expressions/presentations, bc naming and defining a protected class here often leaves the people who already are left out from those shared experiences of marginalisation out in the cold when they face violence

[snekdood]

idg bullies bc if you think someone is committing some sort of social sin... why aren't u stepping in to help them, why are you watching them fuck up? clearly its important enough to you that you try to socially punish the fellow, if this is a social cause you are so very impassioned about, why not help that person not fuck up?

or... did you just want to laugh at someone fucking up? bc at that point you're providing nothing to anyone besides just being an asshole but hey ig some people are proud of their assholes so

[silverselfshippingchaos]

I get it was an important moment but... he's so cute when he's asleep!

[aromantic-karamatsu]

Yeah thing abt anxiety is you actually literally do have to grab your brain sometimes and go "Are you actually in danger?! Is this problem something we can actually fix now or is it a situation that is out of our control and therefore worrying about it actually does nothing?! Huh?!" And then force yourself to realize what situations your anxiety is ACTUALLY helpful and how to let go in situations where it isnt

Unfortunately this is not a skill that you get with a snap of your fingers, you literally have to TEACH yourself how to do it and it's painful.

Even more unfortunately rational people sitting outside of your anxiety are NOT AWARE that this is a literal skill you were basically born without and just tell you "calm down" without understanding YOU DON'T HAVE THE TOOLS TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT. If someone who was super good at weight lifting told me, a beginner at weights, to just "pick up a 50 pound dumbbell" I'D DIE, because I haven't trained to do that! I quite literally don't have the muscle or knowledge on proper techniques to do that without hurting myself, physically or emotionally!!!

So yes, sometimes you DO have to take the high road and just tell yourself "I do NOT need to worry about this" even though it feels stupid and useless because you still worry, but you also have to forgive yourself and understand you are learning! It won't be easy the first few times, and even when you get more used to self soothing and emotional regulation sometimes it's not linear and it's like your first day of lifting weights all over again!

I just think we as a society do need to understand that anxious disorders are both something we (anxious people) can NOT control without effort and therapy and that we (anxious people) need to realize sometimes we DO have to put in painful, uncomfortable work to manage it! It sucks but thats life, and it can get easier with the right support and whatever treatment looks like for you!

[faedotexe]

I am looking for a Truth cut in colored glass That will never grow cold - Precious words caught in ice That know to remain light Shining the winter's morn - For this quiet truth That can stay perfectly still, And maybe not grow bitter When I am old or ill.

[parme-san]

who ever is out there saying that heart shaped diamonds aren't the ideal cut for an engagement ring is NUTS

[ukulelegodparent]

It's so weird growing up how fast you get disinterested in eating sweet food. Like I've gone from 'I can eat a bag of Gummi Bears and drink a liter of coke and have a big bar of chocolate in one evening' to 'i'll have sweet things sometimes but I get so sick of like eg Gummi Bears so quickly. A handful is really on the verge of too much sometimes' in so little time.

[waffulaa]

[dramatic-dolphin]

if there's one thing this job is making me realize it's that children are adorable, even overly online tiktok-watching ipad kids who (very politely!) ask me if we sell "mr beast chocolate"

[monarchamos]

some of my friends learn bsd through my rants and rambles about chuuya and dazai

and some of my friends learn bsd solely through me scrolling through memes with them

[givemethedamnflowers]

I had the extreme honor today of saying "he's our spider george" and to be understood it was amazing